The naked truth of spiritual transformation is that if we dont change our lives ourselves, nothing will change them for us

Just another day in the life :)

"I could be known for needing a lot of love. I'll never admit that to myself much less anyone else. The truth is that sometimes I feel so emotionally frustrated and the only way I know how to deal with those feelings is by being within myself. At most times I'm at a reserve for words. But what few words I have, you can take them to the bank, because I promise them to be genuine and sincere."

Aloha Mau Loa <3 Alicialeigh

Edward Estlin Cummings

anyone lived in a pretty how town
(with up so floating many bells down)
spring summer autumn winter
he sang his didn't he danced his did

Women and men(both little and small)
cared for anyone not at all
they sowed their isn't they reaped their same
sun moon stars rain

children guessed(but only a few
and down they forgot as up they grew
autumn winter spring summer)
that noone loved him more by more

when by now and tree by leaf
she laughed his joy she cried his grief
bird by snow and stir by still
anyone's any was all to her

someones married their everyones
laughed their cryings and did their dance
(sleep wake hope and then)they
said their nevers they slept their dream

stars rain sun moon
(and only the snow can begin to explain
how children are apt to forget to remember
with up so floating many bells down)

one day anyone died i guess
(and noone stooped to kiss his face)
busy folk buried them side by side
little by little and was by was

all by all and deep by deep
and more by more they dream their sleep
noone and anyone earth by april
wish by spirit and if by yes.

Women and men(both dong and ding)
summer autumn winter spring
reaped their sowing and went their came
sun moon stars rain

When does "You'll get over it" begin?

I have a friend who is in such a stressful place in her life. She has been in this relationship with a piece of shit boyfriend who is not even worth a moment of her time. When I first met him, yes I gave her the benefit of the doubt and I gave him a chance and tried to like him. But he didnt impress me and I wasnt sure what she had even saw in him. Not too long down the road, basically a few months later they started runing into problems.She found out that he had an addiction to poppin pills. And he would get drunk and take like 7 pills and get all loopy and crazy and he would be all fucked up. She refused to put up with it and so he pleaded that he would stop and he knew he had a problem and blah blah blah. It happened over and over again and for some reason he always seemed to convince her that he would make things better, but in my observations it never got better and only got worse from the moment when  it started going downhill. Eventually her brothers and sisters stepped in and told her their thoughts and feelings and that they didnt like him he was a piece of shit etc etc. Then I expressed my thoughts feelings etc that also went along with her brothers and sisters. Then a couple days later she decides she just wants to pick up and leave. She moves an hour and a half away from her family, her job, and her friends. In my opinion this was what a coward would do. She was being selfish and cowardly by deciding to ignore the truth and to even think that moving away from everybody would make things better. Of course it didnt and since she has moved I have seen less and less of her and things have gotten worse and worse. Finally she reached a point of no return and although she has decided its really over this time, she still is so sad and wont come back to herself as who she really truly is and was before this piece of shit. It makes me so sad because I just dont know why she would even put herself through it.

What makes women lower themselves to this level ? I dont get it. At one point in my life I experienced my low also. I was in a relationship that was full of hardship and i felt degraded and unappreciated. But I knew that there was no lack of love. For I was with the same person for so long that I understood him and I understood that when he was mad he would say certain things and act a certan way just to make me upset and just to push my buttons, therefore I never got too hurt but I was more mad and angry than anything. Eventually we split up. I'll always love him and I cant help that. But there was a point where I reflected on my relationship and I rejoiced the fact that we had chosen to be apart but it makes me even sadder to know that we still love eachother and that we let it get to that point where we fought and had anger toward eachother. But I'm thankful that I can look back and learn from the relationship. I know now the things I do want from a relationship with another guy and I have perfect examples of the things I do not want. I feel sorry for the women who keep themselves in the circle of that pattern of abuse both physically and mentally. And i feel sorry for the dudes who treat the women they love like crap and eventually end up losing them. But i dont feel sorry for the couple who knows how unhealthy their relationship is and still yet decides to stay in it.

To figure out what we want in our relationships we must come up with clear definitions of love. What is the difference of means to love someone unconditionally and to love someone with boundaries. You can only forgive so much and love so wrecklessly before you wreck your heart and total it. The greater the damage the longer it'll take to repair.