Hello, did you change your mind and burn everything?

(phone rings and i dont answer)

text message-

Him- Hello, did you change your mind and burn everything?

I-Oh you know me so well

Him-Bet it was fun, goodbye.

I-dont be so cynical. I still love you and I have respect for your things. I wouldnt do that to your nice shirts.

Him-Does that mean you're dropping it off today or holding it hostage?

I-haha i can drop it off but i dont get off till 8:30

Him-well im here at my house, what do you have to do?

I-just housekeeping stuff, cleaning, taking out trash, cleaning toilets etc etc. stuff like that. youre lucky your done with all your shit cuz working for free sucks dog shit. After Im done with all this legal matter and off probation Im moving to Oahu with my oldest brother Mike and my middle brother Joel, hopefully my other brothers follow. My oldest brother is going to open up a restaurant/lounge. And I'm gonna finish school there.If you ever make it back to the rock, look me up in the phone book lol.

Him- Coo. I met my tattoo master that is willing to teach me over 23 years of tattoo knowledge, I start in less than a month.

I- Thats awesome, where did you meet him?

Him- Him?!?! Him is a she and I ran into her while I bartending in the sports bar the other day.

I- Cool, Im happy for you :)

Him-Good way to describe her, she looks like a fly ass gypsy...Gold chains, i mean gold errythang.

I-Oh I bet shes wonderful. Sounds like she has a good heart, to b so willing to teach unto you.

Him- Shooo is a sweet lady.

Him-After i get my license your uncle should let me tat that piece pipe on him.

Him-Or tat all u guys up in general....give u the family discount.

Him- ...Least i can do for the unbelievably fuckt up things i've done to u.....

I-Wow.I have never heard u admit to being in the wrong. Sounds like u had a vision. I wandered when it would come to you.

I-Seeing yourself for what u really are and done and admitting your wrongs, thats the first step to becoming who u wanna b. Sometimes we get lost out there trying to find ourselves.

Him- Im not lost, I know im fuckt up theres no going back. Im happy and shocked i didnt do what i fantasized to do that last night we had together. ya its horrible to say but u really can only fantasize for so long.

I- Lost is an inuendo in the metaphor. It stand for the fuckt up things we do to hurt both physically and mentally the ppl who care about us the most, and often ourselves. I didnt mean that you dont know who you are. Just that i know thats not genuine to what you want to be. Who would want to be so evil. Afterall evil spirits surround everyone but they can only manifest in the weak. I know you got dreams and goals, i see the greater good within your purpose. We often see the best version of the good within ppl. But we dont realize that we cant make them be their best version of themselves, only they can. This isnt something i read in a book. It comes from my heart. I know Im a good person with a golden heart. I was born with big old eyes that give me intuition and clairvoyance. I am who i am and Im sure you know me by now.

I- The great spirit has kept me here. I survived because he has a plan for me. Despite all bad relationships, the addictions, the consequences, the bad credit, the death of my loved ones, the backstabbing from friends and family, the negitive thoughts, or the lack of support, I made it through because i am blessed, i release and let go of all the past hurts, misunderstandings and fueds because i am abundantly blessed, I recognize them as they are sent from the enemy the evil spirits of the devil, to kill my spirit, steal my joy and destroy my faith. For good is all there is, all else is a lie. I give myself a hug, wipe my tears away and WALK PROUD, love myself to be a blessing to everyone. Because if i dont, then im the only one who suffers...